Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Im sorry I cant fake this happy shit no more!!!!!!!!!!! who the fuck am I kidding? This life sucks so bad. all I feel is depression, sadness, self digust. I had the most miserable fucking childhood and it RUINED my brain or any chance at ever being close to normal. I read all this shit u people write and I want to feel it to. It sounds so logical,,,pray, be kind, find god, dont allow the sadness. And like a fool I think ya they r all right. Then I go about my day and my anger overrides my ass, I wanna hurt everyone I see in my path. My son told me I looked tired cuz I have no makeup on which proves that without makeup im so fucking ugly I cant leave the house. I am so fuckin miserably not happy then I BEAT myself cuz WHY THE HELL CANT I do what all of u do and just get happy?!~ cuz Im a fuck up. I came home and there was shit And piss around from that fucking dog! I kicked her ass literally and now my girls think Im insane and all I can do is cry my fucking eyes out, so they left qwuick with their dad. Cuz im a fucking suck ass mom. 2 beautiful girls think im fucking mental and I AM> And when they grow up FUCKED up with this stupid fucking depression I can feel responsible!!!! My fucking boyfriend just says, LOOK AT U, U NEED HELP, U BETTER talk 2 someone. Supportive mother fucker........I wish I didnt have kids that Im ruining because some damned perverts and shitty mother ruined me. I really have done good mothering and they need to run to dads tonight cuz im a fucking freak..........I so give up people. This IS LIFE SUFFER IN HATRED AND INSANITY UNTIL I DIE. I cant stand myself or this shitty stupid life
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A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
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Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...
this is a depression support group, darlin'..we ALL have it. we're just trying to help each other. i'm sure we've all been in some variation of where you are now. breathe..slow yourself..and if you have a doctor call him/her..if you don't get one..like..yesterday.
(((((HUGS)))) Diane
Scream, jump, kick, writhe on the floor and direct your anger towards the monsters who hurt you, not yourself. You don't have to have an audience to do this and do it until you completely run out of energy for as long as it takes to get it out.
Once you feel calm, talk to that little girl inside who's been hurt and tell her that you will not allow anyone to ever hurt her again.
No one is happy all the time, but if we're lucky, we do have happy moments.
You have treasures all around you, fight for them.
Don't turn your anger inward, direct to the monsters.
Do you have access to a Dr. and are you open to the idea of taking antidepressants? You may need some help to get your feelings under control. And it is not just your feelings. Your depression is clearly getting worse, which is making your anger more intense. What do you want to show your daughters (who may also have depression to deal with at some point in their lives, too)how to deal with this problem right now??
It seems these moments come in waves, and when they hit..they hit hard!
We're all here to try and help you through this. I'm glad you let it out, rather than let it just keep building up.
YOu are no freak! You're a woman in pain, looking for release. I hope you can find release from this pain soon. Please talk to someone.
Know what I think? I think you need a little R&R - a getaway perhaps? Sometimes that's the best therapy. When's the last time you've done this? It doesn't have to be expensive. But I really think you need it. If you don't do things for yourself, who will? Take the time for you. I know you have a bazillion things going on in your life. You're a label. Someone's mom, caretaker, spouse, etc. You need to take time to be Nichole. Recharge your batteries. You have that beautiful ocean in front of you. Get a room on the ocean - and sit and take in all the sights and sounds. Get lost in the tranquility. Find that beautiful spirit within you. Don't let all the stresses of life take you over. I love you girlie. Things will get better. Just keep focusing on the light. I'm here for you. *Hugs*
getting yourself to the nearest hospital (it doesn't have to be a psych hospital) take the bus, call a cab, and present yourself to the Emergency Room and explain that you are extremely depressed and feel that you are a danger to yourself right now (particularly if you don't have any one who is supportive to stay with you right now. A Doctor can arrange for you to be transferred to a hospital (either that one or one that provides mental care. THIS IS NOT THE SAME AS BEING "COMMITED".Once you are no longer a danger to yourself, you can leave.
ONLY YOU KNOW HOW BAD AND DESPERATE YOU FEEL