
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Hey all,
I'm at the end of my rope here and I'm not sure what to do. I've grown tired of my life and I'm considering ending it. I just can't see it getting any better and I am tired of failure, rejection and sorrow.
I'm 27 and I've screwed up my life royally. 2.5 years ago (should have done this right when I finished college but instead chose to waste years upon years), I moved out here to the mountain west in order to pursue a master's degree. I was supposed to be done in August 2008 but unfortunately I had some problems with my research and I'm still not finished. I've lost all interest in the thesis and haven't worked on it for a month. To make things worse, I lost my job at the end of February and am now unemployed with $1000 to my name, loads of student loan debt, and hopelessly stuck.
I've lost interest in everything. I just don't care anymore. I don't care about my thesis and even though I'm just about dead broke, I don't care about finding yet another unsatisfying job. In fact, I'm kind of hoping I don't find a job because I'll have more reason to just kill myself and get it over with.
I don't have a girlfriend and I'm about to lose the few friends I have because I've been feeling this way for a while and I'm sure they're sick of me. People tell me things will get better but I honestly don't think I have the ability to make things better. I've never had many friends and have rarely dated and I chalk that up to just not being a worthwhile or good person.
I feel so trapped right now and it's making me nuts. I don't know what to do.
DC
I'm at the end of my rope here and I'm not sure what to do. I've grown tired of my life and I'm considering ending it. I just can't see it getting any better and I am tired of failure, rejection and sorrow.
I'm 27 and I've screwed up my life royally. 2.5 years ago (should have done this right when I finished college but instead chose to waste years upon years), I moved out here to the mountain west in order to pursue a master's degree. I was supposed to be done in August 2008 but unfortunately I had some problems with my research and I'm still not finished. I've lost all interest in the thesis and haven't worked on it for a month. To make things worse, I lost my job at the end of February and am now unemployed with $1000 to my name, loads of student loan debt, and hopelessly stuck.
I've lost interest in everything. I just don't care anymore. I don't care about my thesis and even though I'm just about dead broke, I don't care about finding yet another unsatisfying job. In fact, I'm kind of hoping I don't find a job because I'll have more reason to just kill myself and get it over with.
I don't have a girlfriend and I'm about to lose the few friends I have because I've been feeling this way for a while and I'm sure they're sick of me. People tell me things will get better but I honestly don't think I have the ability to make things better. I've never had many friends and have rarely dated and I chalk that up to just not being a worthwhile or good person.
I feel so trapped right now and it's making me nuts. I don't know what to do.
DC
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I'm in a terrible situation and have had depression issues for years and I can't get out of the situation without making things worse so I've been trying to make the best of things. Everyone around me is smiling and being happy and I just can't get out of this rut. Please give me any suggestions you have.
You may be thinking you can some how get out of this on your own. That is an admiral thought, but it has been building for years.
You must seek help.
Second thing .. you are 27. You have had a relativelyh small span of life. You have no idea what you will miss if you kill yourself. That is bullshit ... because even if you don't do a damn thing .. good things will happen to you, unless you kill yourself.
I am going on 63 and you do not know what all lies ahead for you. If you have ever fucked up before, killing yourself would be the biggest mistake you could possibly think of. None of your situation is worth killing yourself over.
First of all, forget the debt for now ... you are not the only student with loan debt you can't pay ... Most can't. Forget it, and tell 'em you will pay it when you can.
Next, get a job .... anything that will keep a roof over your head. Even two jobs if you must. Yep, times are tough, but there are jobs out there, . be a waiter, bar tender, warehouseman, pizza chef, whatever will keep you off the street. For now, these are the only two things you have to do.
Thesis, friends, girlfriend can and WILL come when your barn is not on fire.
I have been homeless, .. you have a motivation problem and might even be justified in having one ... but when you are facing sleeping outside ... you will motivate. Motivate now ... not then.
Go get a job tomorrow ... and if that fails after giving it all you got, go get one the next day ... until you get one. If it is not enough, go get a second one.
You may not know what dispair is until you are dirty, hungry, frightened, and sleeping outside. As for killing yourself ... you might, .. but you might not be able to to that either .. it is not easy ... especially when you don't want to die. You don't want to die ... you just don't want to live .... this way. Get to work on it and do what you have to do to improve your situation. You can do it. Square off at it and get 'er done.
Here is something just for DS newcomers:
http://dailystrength.org/groups/new-to-ds
So yeah I've been waiting 10 years for good things to start happening. Guess what? They haven't happened yet. Nothing I seem to do matters or changes anything, so why bother?
The thing is that we need more than positivity, more than sympathy and empathy. it is crushing for me to hear you talk about yourself the way you do. You are one of a kind. You are an amazing expression of love.
You know what I think you could do? Forget all this for awhile and try to find someone else to help through their crap. You may not feel like you can give very much, but it doesn't take much. If you bring life to the world in which you live, life will be brought to you. Be the life for someone around you. Get out of the self-centeredness that you are lost in.
If it means anything, I really care about you even though I don't know you. You are a gift from God to our world and I hope that you find that out. I don't have all the answers, but I do know that life is worth the living. Be the life dude. Be the life in your world.
I believe in you. Have an awesome day!
school you waited for things to get better.
I do not see at any point that you sought any help for a situation
that you cannot handle without outside help.
You hint at a bad family situation. That has me thinking the depression has been there for a very long time, perhaps all your life.
It has finally reached a point that you must seek help
You are clearly able to work towards a goal and achieve it. Why not apply your efforts towards healing your depression. Give yourself the care that your family should have given you.
p.s. i joined this forum just to tell you this ;) fkn fight man! give this bitch life a hard time
It just doesn't fall into your lap, YOU have to make it happen. How? By giving a damn about you, life and the future. Quit feeding into the negative and focus your attention on the positive. Change your thought patterns ie, stop beating yourself up. When you start taking care of you and find your self worth, everything else will fall into place.
Hugs xxxxxx