Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I too, am a withdrawn, shy person. I recall my life and understand the reason why Iam this way.
2 days ago my 26 yr. old son attempted SUICIDE. This was the second attempt. He was alone, got his knife & sat in the bathtub. Slitting his wrists & bleeding for an hour, he ended up calling an ambulance for himself. 19 stitches in one arm & 10 on the other. He lost a lot of blood after realizing he didn't really want to die.
I divorced my alcohol & drug addicted husband after taking his abusive for 23 years. I thought my life was renewed back then but instead I was left with 3 sons who have deep addictions to either drugs, alcohol or both. They're depression is my depression. I feel guilty for not doing a good job; discipline was difficult when I would say "no" and he would always say 'yea, whatever'. After ten years now of diagnosed with 'disease of the month' Iam unhealthy & cannot deal with my sons problems. They have exhausted my financial stability and I am disabled, no longer able to work. The frustration is beyond "get over it". I'm beginning to have paranoid thoughts like I'm being punished because it's almost herendous the bad things that happen to me or my sons on a daily basis! I suffer from Chronic Pain due to ten surgeries~all failed. Nerve damage, I'm diabetic and have AML Acute Myelogenous Leukemia. My Physicians are talking about doing a Bone Marrow Transplant. I have no immuen system as they removed my spleen. I've had so many chemotherapy infusions; blood transfusions and platelet infusion and transfusions that maybe I got a bad dose once or twice. When a Physician throws his hands up in the air and refers to me as a "Medical Mess", it's hard to think positive any more.
Happiness for my sons is all I ever wanted to grow old with & eventually die. Their addictions add to my sorrows and thoughts of dying before any one of my many diseases take me is almost comforting. I've become my favorite fan of the 'Deep Dark" Club. No matter how hard I try, I cannot crack a smile any more.
Now...when my son is released from his suicide attempt...what do I say to him? It will be uncomfortable; I don't want to say something that will want him to try again. Not that I feel I ever have, if anything, I've spoiled him and enabled him in all sorts of ways.
Iam very DEPRESSED. How can I help anyone when I feel dark & gloomy?
What can I do for him now? I'm all he has.
His oldest brother is back in jail. His younger brother is in Iraq. The only male figure he can talk to when he needs to is his dad...and he doesn't care. He is still an arrogant evil drunk & drug user. He's gone so far as to offer his sons drugs to help make him feel better when he was just 15 years old!!
How did this happen?
ANYONE THINK I SHOULD TRY TALKING WITH A PSYCHIATRIST? I wouldn't know where to start...what to say? Could he commit me?
I've been on anti-depressants for years, along with heavy duty pain medication, Morphine. I also take xanax for my nerves, blood pressure pills..pills to sleep & pills to wake me up. Insulin injections 4 times a day...and I have no appetite...i just don't eat. I just don't care sometimes. I scare myself. My emotions are running dry and most of my days I just sit and stare at nothing. I'm numb.
2 days ago my 26 yr. old son attempted SUICIDE. This was the second attempt. He was alone, got his knife & sat in the bathtub. Slitting his wrists & bleeding for an hour, he ended up calling an ambulance for himself. 19 stitches in one arm & 10 on the other. He lost a lot of blood after realizing he didn't really want to die.
I divorced my alcohol & drug addicted husband after taking his abusive for 23 years. I thought my life was renewed back then but instead I was left with 3 sons who have deep addictions to either drugs, alcohol or both. They're depression is my depression. I feel guilty for not doing a good job; discipline was difficult when I would say "no" and he would always say 'yea, whatever'. After ten years now of diagnosed with 'disease of the month' Iam unhealthy & cannot deal with my sons problems. They have exhausted my financial stability and I am disabled, no longer able to work. The frustration is beyond "get over it". I'm beginning to have paranoid thoughts like I'm being punished because it's almost herendous the bad things that happen to me or my sons on a daily basis! I suffer from Chronic Pain due to ten surgeries~all failed. Nerve damage, I'm diabetic and have AML Acute Myelogenous Leukemia. My Physicians are talking about doing a Bone Marrow Transplant. I have no immuen system as they removed my spleen. I've had so many chemotherapy infusions; blood transfusions and platelet infusion and transfusions that maybe I got a bad dose once or twice. When a Physician throws his hands up in the air and refers to me as a "Medical Mess", it's hard to think positive any more.
Happiness for my sons is all I ever wanted to grow old with & eventually die. Their addictions add to my sorrows and thoughts of dying before any one of my many diseases take me is almost comforting. I've become my favorite fan of the 'Deep Dark" Club. No matter how hard I try, I cannot crack a smile any more.
Now...when my son is released from his suicide attempt...what do I say to him? It will be uncomfortable; I don't want to say something that will want him to try again. Not that I feel I ever have, if anything, I've spoiled him and enabled him in all sorts of ways.
Iam very DEPRESSED. How can I help anyone when I feel dark & gloomy?
What can I do for him now? I'm all he has.
His oldest brother is back in jail. His younger brother is in Iraq. The only male figure he can talk to when he needs to is his dad...and he doesn't care. He is still an arrogant evil drunk & drug user. He's gone so far as to offer his sons drugs to help make him feel better when he was just 15 years old!!
How did this happen?
ANYONE THINK I SHOULD TRY TALKING WITH A PSYCHIATRIST? I wouldn't know where to start...what to say? Could he commit me?
I've been on anti-depressants for years, along with heavy duty pain medication, Morphine. I also take xanax for my nerves, blood pressure pills..pills to sleep & pills to wake me up. Insulin injections 4 times a day...and I have no appetite...i just don't eat. I just don't care sometimes. I scare myself. My emotions are running dry and most of my days I just sit and stare at nothing. I'm numb.
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Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...
Find a therapist ASAP.
And keep writing here. There are many people who want to help you.
Good luck.
A psychiatrist has to be convinced you are a danger to either yourself or others before s/he can commit you, and in most states it requires 2 psychiatrists to be hospitalized. In my experience, they prefer not to take that choice. The only two times I've been hospitalized were when I had a concrete plan in place to attempt suicide...
I really recommend that you do this for yourself, but trust your instinct as to whether you feel comfortable with the person, and don't be afraid to switch if you don't...
Good luck