Half the time he can be a jerk and other things I would love to name him. Let me tell you a little bit about my current situation. I am disablied to a wheelchair, I'm 21 years old. For the last 2 years I've been dealing with depression. My last year of high school my couselor told him I wasn't doing well and maybe it would be good to see a doctor. All they gave me was a counselor because I was going through a hard time. Then the next year, which is still this year, I become worse. So, I took up the guts to tell my sisters about it and my grandmother and we all have a family meeting with him. I told him a few things, and it was like he wasn't even listening to me. Just trying to augue with me. He's my legal gaurdian, so he has a lot of say what I can and can't do. I've tried looking into group homes and he loves stoping me, and says the state will not take me unless there is something majorly wrong. He wouldn't let me see a doctor for my depression, nor do I see a couselor anymore. If I can, I just try and call her once a week, but we always don't get a chance to talk. And just tonight he told me he didn't need "The Bomb" droped on him again, meaning the family talk. He wants me to tell him when I cry and so forth instead of the rest of my family. Why even bother telling him when all he does is give me speeches, you know? I've hid this long enough, and now he doesn't want me going around telling my friends and others how bad I feel and so forth. Oh, and yeah, tonight he told me I laugh a little to much after every little thing. I sounded like my grandmother. He doesn't care for her right now. I was so close to tears by then. We were eating supper then. I wanted to just screem at thim by saying, "FINE, NO More laughing, and I'LL PRETEND TO BE HAPPY ALL MY LIFE EVEN THOUGH IT IS HARD AT TIMES, IT'S CALLED DEPRESSION ASSWHOLE. Course, that would just get me in trouble. He said he loved my laughing but I've been doing to much lately, like pushing it out. And sounded like my grandmother. I'm sorry this is so long, I'm just upset right now. Oh, and did I forget to mention it is his birthday tomorrow? I'm only saying happy birthday and thats it. He takes good care of me physical, but not with the other parts. Ok, I'll shut up now, before I start crying more.
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