i wish that i cud jus go 2 sleep and neva wake up evry nite i pray that ill die in my sleep. i tuk 200mg of methodone and 40mg shud kill u and i still lived i overdosed on tabs and my family were called up 2 say i was goin to die and i lived. i feel as tho god is punishing me and that staying alive like this is a punishment for sunfing i have done bad. the crisis team wnt let me put myself in 2 hospital which is the only place i know i will feel safe i get this hollow empty feeling inside me and i cant stop crying i feel as though i am driving my partner away and she doesnt understand ive nw started cutting up 2 relieve the pain whilst i fink of a way to kill myself which wnt urt 2 much and the only way i no of is injecting herion n i wudnt no wher 2 start sum pple may fink tht it is selfish bt i fink it is selfish of pple to expect me to continue hurtin so badley i know that i shud fink myself lucky that i am nt psychically disabled in any way but if i cud give my life 2 sum 1 else i wud i wish i cud die so much
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