I feel so helpless. I have recently had to move back in with my Mother who has never really loved me but always resented me for "having" to marry my father that she despised until the day he died. I was a mistake to begin with. I have lost EVERYONE but her due to death and she is well on her way with COPD and chain smoking. She told me today she doesnt want me here and I have nowhere else to go and to make matters worse my best and only friend my cat Raven has been showing signs of kidney failure for 5 days and I dont have the money to take her to the vet. I feel as if I have failed her too just like everything else in my life. I have went to the local mental health center and will finally be seeing a dr on monday after having to wait a month and a half. Well that is if I can get my Mom to take me bc I lost my license for the next 3 yrs which also has me paralyzed. So here I am 37 never married no kids and no purpose in life. I used to be a very social person as a matter of fact my friends nicknamed me Bubbles bc I was always smilin although never truly happy but no one ever knew. Now I even have social anxiety and am used to my solitude. I keep praying but it just seems as if I have been forgotten......
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