Ever since the very beginning of my depression I have felt like time doesnt exist anymore. Every morning that I wake up I feel as if I never slept, I just cant recall what happened between the night before and now. Every morning it seems like the first day of my life which scares the hell out of me. When I think about my own existence im scared with the fact that everything feels so strange. It feels like my entire life I have just been watching this person who I am, and ever since the depression started ive been thrown into the body and im forced to deal with daily life. Time stands still but I am forced to continue forward, making every second seem like the first second of my life. all of this is very confusing and causes me to dwell on my thoughts alot. does anyone have any suggestions of what this could be? has anyone ever experienced this before?
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