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The Beast of Depression

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What is depression to you?

To me depression is a monster, a big scary beast with fangs, horns and claws, that walks the darkest corridors of your mind drooling, and feasting over your self-hatred and your insecurities. When you are at your best, it lets out a piercing roar which shakes your bones, and brings to the front of your mind, all that which you thought you had buried. You think you have it in a corner, then all goes dark and you find it is you in the corner, cold and crying in fear that the beast will get you. You spend life running and hiding from it, or standing face to face trying to tame it.

I am done with running & hiding, and done trying to tame the beast! Just when I think he (yes, MY depression is male) is calm and sedate, he gets a whiff of some emotional prey and goes crazy; pure animalistic rage. I am done with fighting him. He is too unpredictable. I must kill him for good.

Two problems though. Im not sure how, AND If he is PART of me will part of me die too?
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f**k me I never thought of it like that.That's scary lol!!To me it is a lonely planet,I am alone on it.I just walked to shops and made no effort to hide it,looked at floor all the way so what?And it's like someone is punching me in the solar plexus and I m so scared and sad.F*****hell my dad and bf pissed me off the weekend not felt like this for months grrrrxxx
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Wham...that to me (and susy's as well) sounds more like anger heading into rage.

Depression has always been there. Sometimes worse than other times. I always called depression the Triple Threat -- helplessness, powerlessness and hopelessness.

If depression is part of you and killing it off is the goal, you end up killing yourself.
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Depression to me, is like carrying around a very heavy weight over my shoulders, but i like your version!!!
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yes you sound angry, am an angry mofo too.I know what made me angry.Child abuse,have dealt with it.Have you dealt with what made you angry hun xx
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No offense intended susy...but I've always considered anger and depression to be very different things to deal with.

As for abuse, we should chat sometime. Each time I start dating someone I have to have a conversation with them about the scars that they are going to see on my body from years past. (And some of them, clothing doesn't cover.)
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I can appreciate that anger and depression MAY be seperate to some, but my depression MAKES me angry, and my anger makes me depressed.

They are one and the same thing to me.
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ok osteoron,I see what you are saying,maybe my anger at the abuse is what has caused my depression,sometimes I think I have dealt with it(I have dealt with the abuse)but yes I am one angry bunny,am seeing psychologist soon to deal with my hatred of humans lol.The more I know people,the more I love animals,who said that? xx
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Depression is a beast to me as well. I have armor I wear to fight it back it back down now.
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whambam I am still sorting it out.I do think the two go hand in hand,I just don't want to admit I am losing control again,last time I lost control I beat a man(bully in my job)up.My dad was a bully I hate my temper xxx
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im so bloody angry today too.getting angryeras day goes on! hate every f***king thing today. and prob upset people now for swearing! ah
hey bunny.x.xx.x.
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for me it is like a big black cloud comes over me and it is hard to shift the cloud as it is so full of darkness and hard to remove
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I kinda feel like from day to day if I'm managing to function normally I'm walking about a nice field. Sometimes running, sometimes sitting down, sometimes happy, sometimes sad... And my depression is an ugly wretched beast that creeps up from the ground and tries to grab at me. Sometimes I can get shoo it off and resist it and sometimes I can't and it gets hold of me and pulls me under the field and into the dirt. When I'm walking around this 'field' I can move and exist freely and when my depression takes hold I'm suffocated, restricted and trapped.

Bit of a metaphor but hope it makes sense to some of you.
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