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having alot of issues with my husband, i left him after 11 yrs ... long story i wont get into right now because i am going to try to take my meds to go to sleep and perhaps i will feel better tomorrow... but let me explain enough to say that he isnt abusive, he doesnt gamble, ect...but he is a perpetual teenager ... so understand, there are no violence or abuse issues that go with this... but what bothers me is this...
i was so depressed about it i was considering suicide...
that doesnt bother me much, i have battled with suicidal thoughts since i was 8 yrs old
what bothered me was that it actually crossed my mind that i needed to kill our daughter too so she wouldnt suffer her fathers emotional distance and immaturity... nothing violent, CO2 and all (and before anyone gets upset thinking they need to track me down for the sake of my child, let me say, for better or worse i am an intellegent person who knows this is totally whacked out thinking which is another reason i left the house and left the kids with him...obviously my meds arent working)
tell me someone else out there had this fleeting thought and what do i call it to get help for it... i wouldnt think it would really be classified under depression, but not really bipolar either... i dont know and i am very confused at even where the thought came from and it scared me alot... i wont go home with my kids by myself...
i can find what the newspapers call it... altruistic familicide... but i cant find what to call it to get help for thoughts of it...
i was so depressed about it i was considering suicide...
that doesnt bother me much, i have battled with suicidal thoughts since i was 8 yrs old
what bothered me was that it actually crossed my mind that i needed to kill our daughter too so she wouldnt suffer her fathers emotional distance and immaturity... nothing violent, CO2 and all (and before anyone gets upset thinking they need to track me down for the sake of my child, let me say, for better or worse i am an intellegent person who knows this is totally whacked out thinking which is another reason i left the house and left the kids with him...obviously my meds arent working)
tell me someone else out there had this fleeting thought and what do i call it to get help for it... i wouldnt think it would really be classified under depression, but not really bipolar either... i dont know and i am very confused at even where the thought came from and it scared me alot... i wont go home with my kids by myself...
i can find what the newspapers call it... altruistic familicide... but i cant find what to call it to get help for thoughts of it...
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*** im rather confused by that statement... he isnt an unwilling dad or abusive or anything, its just he acts like a teenager - whines when 'real life' infringes on his video game time, wont pick up after himself or kids, ect....
i see a couple of people put that their suicidal thoughts stopped when they had kids... ironically that is when mine got much worse... i had postpartum after our first child but the post partum psychosis started after the birth of our 2nd child 2 yrs ago...
i have always dealt with depression and have been in and out of counseling and cycled through (to date) around 9 different depression meds.
the one i am on right now obviously isnt working anymore since i seem to have cycled into manic again since i cant sleep more than 1 hr at a time again. i was pretty stable actually until the birth of our son - dont get me wrong, i had post partum with our daughter too (i have 2 kids, daughter is 7, son is 2) but it was just bad depression and responded to meds fairly quickly and well...i didnt have to switch meds for 2 yrs after that... 2 months after our son was born i had post partum psychosis with bipolar hypomania episodes.. it took them a good 4 months to find meds that worked and then after 1 yr, i cycled back out of the psychosis/manic phase and they switched me back to an ssri... and here we are back cycling...
yesterday was a particulary bad day, i wonder if other women had the same problem i do - that time of the month makes it so much worse... thing is i know from past experience that it is not rational and i removed myself from my children when it happened the first time - heck, they had to bring my husband back from afghanistan deployment because of it...
anyway, i dont so much bother with the counseling - basically the counselors tell me i need a psychiatrist because i need medication regulation and its difficult because there isnt a predictable pattern to when i cycle but when i cycle from regular depression into the psychosis/mania - the meds do nothing, when i first dealt with the psychosis, they took me off of effexor xr and put me on amitriptiline and it worked good...but then i cycled and the amitriptiline made me worse, so they put me back on effexor and i have been good for around 5 months now... just seems the cycles get worse and shorter, and we havent found one med to work on both situations, so i leave - because you are right ... you never know when it might turn into an actual belief instead of realizing it for what it is - irrational thoughts/beliefs ...
why do i want to know what it is? it works with my ocd to make me feel like i have some control over it if i can name it.... dont ask me to explain that one....