I feel so depressed today. There was a scientist -Frederick Taylor who studied in scientific way- how the work need to be done in a most efficient way. The most efficient way means taking the complete maximum from a worker every day, every hour. That's how my adviser acts with me- she is very nice to me, but if things are not done in a fastest possible way and in the best way - she is getting mad. And she is acting to hurt, even if speaking nice. What is her getting mad means to me -- grade in the exam, any further grades. I have no word to say, because of this exam. She is already getting my whole summer free work - I am not getting payd a cent for what I am going to do. Her research assistant doing exactly the same work- getting paid for it, but I have to teach additionally. Plus I am getting reprimanded on the staff, that makes me feel bad ;-(. I have to study and do the staff for tomorrow, but I am just very depressed and so lack of motivation to do the staff ;-(.
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