I joined this group because twelve years ago, my husband and high school sweet heart, committed suicide. He left me with 2 small children. Now grown up and so far doing okay. But I am left still feeling guilty that he committed suicide. It is something that weighs heavy on my mind and especially heavy this time of year. His birthday is coming up and the anniversary of his death is also near. I hear alot of you say it is selfish and you are tired of hearing about it, well, from my point of view, it is a selfish act. But it is also reality and it does happen. It's what we are left with afterwards that is hard. I myself have been battling this and don't know how to get past the guilt. I find myself pushing men away because I am affraid of getting to close and then possibly having them die. What should I do?
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