Good Morning Ladies and Gentelmen, I am writing from my hospital bed while waiting for a heart cather this afternoon. I came in last Tuesday night, nauseated, hard to breathe, dizy. I thought the meds were making me dizy and I would get used to them but that wasnt the case. There is no wonder I am depressed. I try not to wonder how much more I can take. I had chest pains since last summer but didnt seek help because I prayed god would take me. Well he dont want me. Seems the only people who want me is my wife. I am not sure why she wants me. If I died, she would have plenty of insurance money,so Its hard to say. If the blood clot is gone today, They will put in a couple stents and I can go back to toilling in a few days.
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