Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
hey everyone.
i dunno if im in a good mood or a bad mood tonight, guess it depends on how you look at it id dont feel down i feel destructive like lets drink A LOT and cut!! i know its a bad idea i get it but tonight i. just. dont. care. i know im not brave enough to kill myself. an the mood im in i really dont care if i wake up in the morning or not.
i got a new motorbike today.. hehe im guna ride it for the first time tomorrow dont have my licence yet but will get it soon :)
imagine the adrenaline i could get on this baby!!
arg i feel so f**ked up right now lol like im enjoying being in so much pain that i do this stupid shit.
i dunno what my question was tbh i know i had one when i started this.
i guess i feel like since the pdoc i saw on thursday obviously saw me as a big suicide risk.. its almost like its become an option, i mean before i thought about it but never thought id actually do it... but now..
i almost feel like i could...
does that make sense to anyone else??
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i dunno if im in a good mood or a bad mood tonight, guess it depends on how you look at it id dont feel down i feel destructive like lets drink A LOT and cut!! i know its a bad idea i get it but tonight i. just. dont. care. i know im not brave enough to kill myself. an the mood im in i really dont care if i wake up in the morning or not.
i got a new motorbike today.. hehe im guna ride it for the first time tomorrow dont have my licence yet but will get it soon :)
imagine the adrenaline i could get on this baby!!
arg i feel so f**ked up right now lol like im enjoying being in so much pain that i do this stupid shit.
i dunno what my question was tbh i know i had one when i started this.
i guess i feel like since the pdoc i saw on thursday obviously saw me as a big suicide risk.. its almost like its become an option, i mean before i thought about it but never thought id actually do it... but now..
i almost feel like i could...
does that make sense to anyone else??
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I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Do you have someone you could call tonight? Someone who could help you to see that you matter??????? Because you do, you know!!
Your life matters!!!! This world needs you!!!!!
Diane
im not saying im going to do it tonight im just saying i feel like the thought of suicide has taken on a reality its never had for me before
But drinking really doesn't help anything, I know when I self harm drink has been a factor.
You have something to look forward to, look forward to that.
You have depression, suicide is always going to be a risk, but it is up to you (with the support from your pdoc etc) to find ways to resolve this - look forward to riding your bike etc, drinking and self harm will only make things appear worse than they are.
I hope you find something to enjoy in life.