This is a help forum, and from what I've seen here in my first few days the majority will help everyone else (see believer in hope thread). Feeling suicidal is a serious concern, but can be overcome. Talking to this lot on here is one way that can help. Why are you feeling this way?

Someone took something I said when I was hurting the wrong way. I apologized, and they said they accepted the apology and didn't blame me, but then in another discussion when I mentioned my pain, started to mock me and said I was full of it and a hypocrite. The other site a full of hate spewing discussions that take over the board. I am a bipolar with extreme cycles and rapid cycles. I had to be weaned of of medication because I am trying to fight off cancer and the drugs cause me to hemorage I can't have surgery because my other ilnesses put me at too high a risk. The Dr.s will only operate once it is full blown cancer for that reason. I live in constant pain. Both physical and emotional, and I am sick and tired of it.

Well I dont thinkyou can do anymore. You have apologised, you cant do anymore than that. Stay over here and chat to us! Tho I do hope you sort things out with the others for your own peace of mind x

I haven't been here long but I've had nothing but support from some very caring people. Stick around here and you'll get plenty of help

Testy I am not sure if you are referring to me or not but I in no way mock you or your pain.
What happened earlier was not your fault we were both hurting and it all got warped in our hurt...I accept my own fault in that...I will and am willing to help in any way that I can...

Sweetie. I wish I could give you a hug. please don't kill yourself... You are loved by people and you are having a bad episode of your bi-polar. Can you go to your hospital or doctor so they can give you valium or something to take the egde off it.

I know how you feel. Things will get better it is just having to deal and live through the shit you are in at the moment. GO and call a freind and tell them you need help, just so someone is there so you won't kill yourself. Keep talking to us sweetie. We are here to help you..

Love Zita

I'll be OK. I think I just needed to get away for a while. The fact I really cant take hardly any medicine don't help. I am drasticaly reduced with what I can take for BP. The Dr. reduced it because of the beading issue, and forbidden to continue with the cancer treatment because it interferes with my other medicine. What irony! I can't take medicine for my physical or my emotional pain. No wonder I go over the deep end ocassionally.

I had as hot a shower as I could stand just now. It helped relieve the pain a bit, but not as well as a bath would. I wish I could have a bath.

I left you a personal post on your profile.

bump hang on in there I`ve only been hear a short while and had nothing but sensitive advice from caring people in the same boat as me

I hope your ok. Im here if you need to talk.

Don't give up! Hold on. Try do let go of the suicidal feelings. There is a reason you are here on this earth. Don't let anytning take away your meaning...

Please call a helpline.

hey testy, I am a chronic pain patient also, living with physical pain 24/7 can get pretty bad. Have you tried posting to the chronic pain community as well.

I can't tell you how much I feel for you. Cancer is hard enough without everything else. So is BP. I hope you find a solution to help.

Rite now I'm still considered to be in the very early stages. Because I have other illnesses that would make the surgery very risky, the Dr will not operate till it becomes full blown and there is no other option. At this time they are trying to find out if any other treatments will keep it from becoming worse.