There I said it! I know people will hate me for saying this as people hate when posts like this are made, but I'm not doing it to tug at peoples heart strings, or seek attention, I'm doing it because I have no other place where I can express myself or my fears or my plans where people will actually give half a damn if I want to jump off a bridge tomorrow. The so called professionals couldnt give a shit what I do, but I'm not doing it to spite them, because frankly they wouldnt notice they would just mark me down as some statistic. I'm doing it...I'm doing it because...do I even know anymore? I'm doing it because I'm never going to stop hurting until all this shit in my head has gone, and because this bitch of an illness has taken away my entire life. I realise I probably sound like Little Miss Self-Pity and Whingeing, but this is just the way I feel. Sorry.
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