I know that although I have a plan and am very prepared, I feel that because I am still on this website, that deep deep down, as much as I don't want to believe it, I kind of want help, and I needed to admit that, at least before I do it. I have found a building and I know when I'll do it. And I was happy about that, I had a plan, and I felt like that was that. But then why am I still here? Maybe it's because I do want help. Even though there is no reason for me to want it, because I see no hope. But here I am, writing this. So I thought that maybe someone could say something, anything, to make me feel differently about this. Although I know that nothing will change my mind because no one ever has and no one ever will and nothing will cure me or make me better, but I feel like I was supposed to write this and try, one last time for a tiny bit of help. Or maybe just a goodbye. I don't know. Anyways, thanks. Bye.
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