Today I told someone that I very much care about that it's possible that I could off myself. The response was not great, as they never are, but he was very concerned with his own guilt in the matter. And it ended up that I was trying to reassure him that he has no fault in this, and he never even asked why I would say something like that. I've reached a breaking point. I can't focus on homework, don't have energy to work, and yet I somehow manage to keep pushing on but I know it's all going to crash down soon. I was hoping this would help me, that I'd have someone in my life who was aware of how much pain I'm in, but to no avail. I don't know what to do. I joined this site just after the incident, because I don't know what to do or where to go. I hurt everyday; mind, body, and soul. It's been that way for years now, and I just want it all to stop. I'd really welcome some suggestions. Thanks for taking the time to listen to me gripe. Peace and love.
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