okay... i'm an idiot. been hanging out w/ this guy lately i know he's got feelings for me but its not mutual... i really like him as a person, he's an awesome guy, i wish i did have those feelings for him and all cause he'd be really good to me. but i don't. went to a party w/ him last night, had too much to drink, ended up kissing a little. don't know what i was thinking. just felt good, i guess, all wrapped up in the moment, whatever. woke up and he's holding my hand. "when do i get to see you again?" calls me tonight to see if i wanna go over by his place for some dinner, him and his roomate (she was out w/ us) were gonna pick up some food and shit... declined on that one, but he wants to take me out tomorrow after i get off work for my birthday... i just really feel like an asshole here. he payed my way through the evening, i go to bed and don't stop anything when he starts kissing me. i've had this done to me a million times and it sucks. its such a shit thing to do to another person. whats the best way to go about this and still be able to chill w/ him cause i wouldn't wanna lose him as a friend.
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