and i hate it (and me). I did try not to be in this worls. I was ready to jump from a bridge but the police turned up so quickly. Someone called them. Why do people get involved. They should leave well alone. Im due to see my pdoc this week. wnat do i say. do i go. should i go back to the bridge and not hesitate so the police dont have time to get there. shold i swallow all my medication. should i slit my wrists. should i hang myself. it would be much easier if i could just not wake up tomorrow. one thing i do know, i want it to end. swallowing razors every day isnt working. pathetic. i know. selfish person, i know. not much use, i know. pretty worthless, i know. rubbish with moey, i know. bad mother, i know. bad wife, i know. bad housewife, know. fat, i know. ugly , i know. what i dont know is how toget out of it easily.
i hate me.
i hate me.
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