I struggle so with emotional pain to agony because of the hopelessness I feel that I may not meet a special significant other. I pray a lot, work out, am seeing some positively wonderful things happen in my life. But I am so alone sometimes and feel such horrible pain that it disrupts life for me. It comes in bits and isn't constant but recurrent. It's a grief process but I am too alone and sometimes too hopeless to bear this. I won't be able to take care of my child living with me, my other kids living with their father, my job, or my commitments. I am concerned that my need for love and belonging and not feeling that I have these may keep me from performing well in my job and maintaining healthy life.
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