A common theme people seem to communicate with me about is my strength. I never thought of myself as having strength. I still don't. I think what is happening, is a confusion between strength and acceptance. I am not so strong but I have accepted that my life is what it is and that will not change. After my accident most people agreed with my that it is a miracle I survived. Truth is, I died twice on the way to the hospital and the damn fool paramedics did their job well. I have been told many many times, that God has something for me to do before I die. So, I have paced my life in His hands to do with as he sees fit. This being the case, I see no point in pissing and moaning about how He conducts his business. Some day, God willing, I will die and catch up on my sleep in a big way. Until then, I wait for God to let me know the task he has chosen for me. So peeps, there it is and each of you can do the same thing simply by understanding that into each life some rain must fall. And like when life turns out to be a lemon, make lemonaid, when the rain produces a flood, be thankful life is a really big lemon cuz your gonna need it to make all that water into lemonaid. I hope this helps at least one person, for then I will have accomplished a good thing today.
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