I have been thinking about this for a while. it's a strange thing that I can't really explain to anyone without it being labelled as this or that. I don't have diagnosed depression, and I do know when it comes along as I have suffered from it since I was 11. When it begins, it's this 'heavy' feeling that takes a hold of your whole body, and it's not like having a bad day or low self esteem - I think that sometimes you just know if you have had depression before. Nowadays I still suffer from anxiety of sorts but not as severely as before, it's just obbessive thoughts. It affects me greatly but I have no idea how to reach out to people - I have it in my head that I am going to die all the time, or something aweful will happen and it feels real. I sometimes stay in bed even when I am not feeling low. I just don't want to face the world sometimes and I don't know why. I don't know if I want to be alive or not and it leaves me so confused. I just can't see a point in doing anything, even though I have fun and am "normal", I sometimes wonder why we are here at all. I keep moving house, as my family won't have me; the family that is left. I have moved out again, but I don't feel anything about it anymore. What is this? it's so strange. Can you help me?
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