I feel like my whole life is spiraling out of control. I have been doing things totally out of the norm lately. Things that I never would've imagined myself doing. It's like I've thrown all my morals and values out the window. I've been in a perfectly happy relationship for awhile now but recently cheated and I don't even know why. I feel the need to do things that will just cause myself more pain. The worst part is that to some degree I don't even care but at the same time hate myself if that makes any sense. I'm in the process of switching doctors because my meds aren't working for my depression and I feel like I'm just drowning in a black hole in the meantime. I feel like I'm standing outside and watching everything happen and have no control over it. I keep asking myself why I did this and still haven't found an answer. Any advice anyone?
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