
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

Owshen
IM TRYING TO GET OFF ALL THE MIND NUMBING MEDS THAT HAS KEPT ME SO DEAD FOR SO LONG, I HAVEN'T FELT HAPPY FOR YEARS, I HAVE'NT FELT HARDLY ANYTHING BUT ANHEDONIA AND DEPRESSION. I AM LOSING EVERYTHING AND RISKING EVERYTHING. I WILL HAVE NO ONE COUNTING ON ME ANYMORE, I WILL HAVE NO ONE PERIOD. I AM GOING TO LEAVE THIS TOWN, AND GET A LIFE, OR END THE ONE THAT HAS GONE ON FOR WAY TOO LONG. SINCE I LOST MY CONNECTIONS WITH THE MENTAL HEALTH SYSTEM, I HAVE BEEN LOSING MY CONNECTIONS TO THE REST OF THE WORLD AS WELL, MAYBE I CAN CHANGE THAT, MAYBE IT'S TOO LATE, I DON'T KNOW. I WAS ONCE SUCH A SOCIAL PERSON, NOW, NOW I CAN'T LEAVE MY FKG HOUSE MOST OF THE TIME. BEING REJECTED BY THE "PROFESSIONALS" HAS MADE IT HARD FOR ME TO THINK THAT ANYONE CAN EVER ACCEPT ME AGAIN. I FEEL LIKE A MONSTER. I WENT OUT ON A LEDGE AS A DESPERATE SUICIDAL PERSON, AND WAS PULLED BACK IN A FREAK OF NATURE, A MONSTER. IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS SINCE I HAVE SEEN OR TALKED TO ANY OF THEM. HOW CAN I EXPECT ANYONE TO FORGIVE ME WHEN I CAN'T FORGIVE MYSELF. FIFTEEN YEARS WITH THESE PEOPLE. HOW CAN I ASK FOR HELP WHEN BEING SUICIDAL IS WHAT MADE THEM ALL HATE ME. I KNOW WHAT I DID WAS STUPID. BUT IT ENDED UP BEING THE WORST THING I EVER DID. AND I THOUGHT I HAD DONE SOME PRETTY BAD THINGS. I REALLY THOUGHT THEY CARED ABOUT ME. WHILE I GUESS I WAS JUST A JOKE THE WHOLE TIME. I WAS NEVER MEANT TO SEE MY TWENTIES, LET ALONE MAKE IT THIS FAR. I TRY TO HAVE HOPE, BUT LOOKING BACK I JUST SEE THE "AFTERMATH" OF ME. AND THE NOTHINGNESS I HAVE LEFT. I'M NOT A STRONG PERSON, BUT IN ONE WEEK, I WILL BE FACING THE GREATEST LOSS OF MY LIFE. THE LAST THREAD THAT HAS HELD ME HERE. MY SON. HE IS THE ONLY, AND I DO MEAN ONLY REASON I HAVE HAD TO WAKE UP DAY AFTER DAY. IT HAS BEEN A FIGHT, BUT AS LONG AS HE WAS HERE I HAVE MADE MYSELF HANG ON, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL DO WITHOUT A REASON. I'M JUST SO TIRED. I WANT IT ALL TO BE OVER SO BADLY.

Autumnal
maybe there are some solutions to this....msg me if you like

deleted_user
Message me, maybe I could help
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