Hello again everyone... I had to go away for a while... I had decided that suicide seemed like the best idea for me, so I had my plan ready, and was willing to go through with it. I was unable to see any reason to stay around any more. I figured my family could find better than me, and just wanted to die. I was taken to the hospital before I even had a chance to fullfill my plan, and sent to the mental hospital for a 72 hour hold. Ended up being longer than 72 hours. I finally have the diagnosis of severe depression and anxiety (along with all the other crap I already have been diagnosed with). I no longer feel suicidal, and feel that I may actually be able to be a contribution to my loving partner and children. As hard as it was to go to the hospital, I was able to do a lot of group work with a lot of people that are dealing with the same issues that I am. It was very reassuring to know that I was not as alone as I felt, and am on my way to recovery. Finally, a little home. This is getting wordy, so I will stop here. Thanks for all of your support, and can't wait to talk to you all again.

PEACE LOVE HAPPINESS

Stephanni