That it would all just end. When I am manic like I was last night I was a danger to myself and to everyone around me. This morning I am so depressed I am a danger to myself. I wouldnt act upon my urges because of my faith. Its just how I feel. I am so sick of this roller coaster ride called my life. I dont have any friends that I can call to come over to be with me to help cheer me up because I dont have anyfriends. Every friend that I have ever thought I had has just used me. If it wasnt for my small children my life would seem just so pointless right now.
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