I go from wanting to scream to wanting to sleep. I am fighting strong urges to cut myself. I have frequent suicidal images (involuntary daydreams). When I feel like this, everything is agony. I'm at work now and I don't know how I'm going to get through the day. I feel like I just need a break for a few days, but I've used up my sick days. I don't want to go back in the hospital again. There is nothing I can think of causing me to feel this way. I don't understand what's happening to me. It's always worst on Mondays, but this last weekend I was pretty bad off, too. I'm useless to my family, useless to everyone, when I'm like this.
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