So sick of trying to make a life out of nothing. Trying to ignore the feelings of being a loser. The constant worry over my future, the past mistakes. Feeling left behind , not accomplishing anything worthwhile. Being angry at my former co-workers who were all able to find jobs after the layoff. Angry at those who made a family and I failed at that too. Feeling like shit most days but putting on a pretty face. Surfing the internet looking for answers. Its torture to infinity. I have looked for volunteer work, looked for jobs, just want to sleep. hard not to feel like its not my fault. Going to sleep to stop these thoughts.
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