I got another infection and ended up in the hospital again. I am staying at my family's winter home with only nursing staff. I am not allowed to be around hubby or kids cause my immune system is to low. I am on oxygen and lots of other crap. lately I just keep thinking why am I doing this why am I fighting for my life. I don't be live in suicide not going to do that I just keep thinking I just want to stop fighting and just let it happen. I just can't do this anymore I know I am so whinny I just can't stop crying.
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