I'm so bad and down today. My mum's finally found out just how violent my son is. I've been protecting everybody from his beatings and batterings. I really need help to cope with him but nobody who is meant to is listening. Maybe when he kills me they will realise I'm not coping and really did need the help I asked for. I've tried everything to control him but when he gets "stuck" due to the autism it's really hard to get through to him. Where did I go wrong? It's so hard being a single parent with depression of a boy who has autism. As Robbie Williams sings "I don't want to die, but I aint keen on living either". Why do I have to wake up in the morning and deal with the same crap all over again. Why can't I just have one day where I'm in a good mood and my son doesn't give me a bruise or something. Really want out today - I HATE when I feel like this.
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