ok, this may sound strange but at the moment i am pushing everyone away - my mum, dad, sisters, friends. The only person i am not pushing away is my bf. problem being is that i'm doing the opposite with him, trying to pull him so close that he's no breathing space. he's a very independent person and needs his space and i respect that but for some reason i find myself getting annoyed at him when he leaves or if he wants to do his own thing. when i think about it, its completely irrational, he's not asking for too much at all. i think i'm smothering him so much that i'm pushing him away. i can see it happening and know theres no reason to be angry at him but can't seem to stop it. maybe im scared of being alone. he left my place an hour ago and ever since ive been on edge and panicky and i guess a bit annoyed at him. Also, he's spending the day with a friend tomorrow which shouldnt be a problem but again i resent it a little bit because i have completely isolated myself from friends and family and he knows ill be sitting alone tomorrow. its like 2 voices telling me different things. the depressed me is annoyed at him but the non-depressed me knows that he's doing nothing wrong. am i blaming him for the way i'm feeling? i think i am. i need to stop this before i push him away for good but i dont know how. Help! Lou x
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