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slowly giving up

deleted_user
deleted_user
for a LONG time ive thought about suicide and the only thing that stops me is thoughts like "ive got to go to work and its the busy season its selfish to make them find a new waitress" ive thought about packing a back and just walking till i cant go on anymore then just lieing down and falling asleep and never waking up!

but lately ive been thinking would anyone ever notice?
and if they did would they care?
and if they would, do i?
chilvr
chilvr
yes, yes, yes...
deleted_user
deleted_user
I would notice and I would care alot, for whatever that's worth to you. (big hugs) Please stick with us.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You matter to someone out there. Whether it be family, a good friend, cousin, ect. Someone or many will hurt for the rest of their lives missing you and feeling as they failed you. You are looking for an escape. We all are. This is totally normal. You have much life left in you. You need to find the strength to get through this.
deleted_user
deleted_user
We would notice and so would those close 2 u!! u can pass this, and think how u would feel once u r past it!! itl b worth it xx
deleted_user
deleted_user
i dont want to get past this i just want the strenght to end this, whats the point in getting past it? so i can live a life that is everything i dont want to be? and i cant think of anyone who would truly care
chilvr
chilvr
you wouldn't be here if you didn't want to get past this...maybe, somewhere deep down inside...you can choose what type of life you lead, make it the way you want it..
deleted_user
deleted_user
OK, I know you're feeling like shit, but you need to think of one thing that you're good at or that makes you happy. I need an answer NOW! Oh, and it's not allowed to be about how wonderful my ass is, because we all already know that xxx
deleted_user
deleted_user
oh oh can i really?? how about not at all, is that an option?????

sorry that was rude but ive just had so many people ask me what I want to do how would i like my life and there is absolutally NOTHING i want

i dont want kids
i dont want a boyfriend or marrage
i dont want a bug career
i simply want nothing
chilvr
chilvr
i wouldn't want a bug career either...i mean really, what would you be a cockroach??
deleted_user
deleted_user
Wat happens tho if things change and once ur past it u have a great life and start to want things..do u want to give up and risk not giving urself a chance at a happy life?
chilvr
chilvr
just joking around, but seriously, i don't mean to be demeaning, but you are only 17. i was 17 once and tried to kill myself by diving out of a van while it was driving down the road...obviously, it didn't work, but the point is that now, no matter how bad it gets, i don't want to die. my life is pretty bleak, but the sun still shines and when it does, it really is worth living. the sun will shine for you too, i know this, even if you don't.
deleted_user
deleted_user
A cockroach is the only thing that can survive a nuclear war tho!! i found that out the other day!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Re-read my comment my love. I didn't ask you to tell me how you would like your life to be or what you want to do....
What are you good at and what makes you happy? One brick at a time love, one brick at a time. We can work at building the wall later xxx
deleted_user
deleted_user
It's never too late to have the life you want. I agree with Chilvr, you're so young yet. You have many options. I was once exactly where you are. But for whatever reason, I stuck around. And I wouldn't want to have missed out on a single one of my memories since then. It's true things look their darkest just before the dawn, luv.

Please, hang in there.
deleted_user
deleted_user
NO NO JOIN ME MAKE LIST OF ALL THE CRAP HEADS AND THEN WE SWITCH LIST LIKE STRANGERS ON TRAIN I DO YOURS YOU DO MINE WALLLLLLA
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