It's one of those days. My heart hurts, and I just want to crawl under my covers and cry. I posted last week (I'm a newbie) about my therapist being gone for a few months, and her absence is really taking a toll. I went to see my interim therapist on Thursday, and all it did was make the hole deeper, wider. The connection I have with M isn't there, and of course it's not and of course I'll keep going because therapy is what keeps me somewhat near my center. Without it I go off the rails but quick. I just feel scared, alone, hopeless ... like everything I've done up to this point as far as therapeutic progress has been undone. I feel like I'm falling apart, like she was my glue and without her I'm just coming undone. I don't want to be in this place again.
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