But I will check in when I can in the morning. I dont know whats wrong with me or why I have flopped for the loving supportive happy go lucky me. I have smashed into a methaporic brick wall and I hurt physically from the operation still and emotionally. I want to be loved and feel loved. I cannot get that from my husband no matter how hard I try or even if I just come out and ask for it. The anger mood swings are not helping either. I dont think this is just my hormones either something else is going on and I dont know what or why. Like I said in an earlier post its like I wish I would have just died on the operating room. That way I would not be breaking my faith in God. I dont want to hurt my children but I smacked my daughter tonight. It would be less painful if I wasnt here to hurt them. I am sorry everyone but I need help and love and I dont have it here at home.
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