I DON'T QUITE KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH HOW I AM FEELING, I DON'T FEELING MUCH LIKE GOING ANYWHER, OR DOING ANYTHING, THIS INCLUDES HOUSE WORK, COOKING, SHOPPING, WALKING THE DOGS, OR DOING LAUNDRY, I JUST FEEL REALLY LOW, AND UNDER THE WEATHER. LIFE JUST SEEMS TO SUCK AT THE MOMENT, I HAVE A SICK HUSBAND WITH HEART PROBLEMS AND HAS HAD A TRIPLE BYPASS HEART SURGERY AND HE HAS TYPE TWO DIABETES, AND HIS HEART PROBLEM IS NOT GOING AND HE IS GOING DOWN HILL FAST, SO HE GET SEVERLY AGITATED AND THE NEGATIVE ATTITUDE ON EVERYTHING JUST ABOUT IN LIFE PULLS ME DOWN AND GETS ME REALLY DEPRESSED, HE SEEMS LIKE HE IS LOOSING THE WILL TO GO ON, HE IS SICK OF THE PAIN, AND HE SPENDS MOST OF HIS DAYS IN BED DUE TO THE HEART PAIN, SO THIS AFFECTS MY OUTLOOK ON ALOT OF THINGS, ALONG WITH MY OWM MEDICAL PROBLEMS, I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO DIG A HOLE AND CRAWL INTO IT OR JUST TAKE OFF SOMEWHERE WHERE I CAN BE ALONG, KIND OF LIKE IN MY OWN MISERY, BUT THAN AGAIN I HAVE MY FOURTEEN YEAR OLD SON TO LOOK AFTER AND MY ILL HUSBAND, AND AT LEAST HE KNOWS HOW I FEEL AND HE SUPPORT ME A HUNDRED PERCENT, AND WHEN MY SON DOESN'T UNDERSTAND OR DEMANDS THINGS, MY HUSBAND ALWAYS HAS A FEW WORDS TO SAY, HE BACK ME TOTALLY, AND KNOWS WHAT IT IS LIKE TO BE IN PAIN, SO WE SUPPORT EACH OTHER. BUT SOMETIMES IT GETS TO BE TO MUCH, BUT I GUESS WE GOT TO KEEP GOING AND LIVE LIFE ONE DAY AT A TIME, AND DEAL WITH WHAT LIFE THROWS AT US, THANKS GUYS, I KNOW I AM RAMBLING ON, BUT NEEDED TOO.
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