I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I wish I felt good for just one day. It has been a constant battle since being diagnosed with a rare brain disease (CBGD) last Dec. I am wiped out just getting out of bed. Went to the grocery store today and I can hardly move. Every day I find things I can no longer do. At one time I was into outdoor activities, was into archery but I discovered two days ago that I can no longer pull my bow back. I am not looking forward to the rest of my life as I am starting to be a burden on everyone. My wife thinks she can handle taking care of me but I don't think so. She has her own problems. My whole life has been a friggin roller coaster. I've been married three times. Have a daughter with my first wife and a son with my second, haven't seen either one of them for years. I miss them both but I don't think they care if I exist. I don't expect to see them before I'm gone. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself but I don't know what I am supposed feel . Thanks for letting me whine.
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