I really don't know what to do.I consider myself to be a christian(trying really hard to be)and I live with my christian aunt,uncle and second cousin.My aunt knows about my anxiety and depressoin.She is willing to talk about my anxiety but not my depression.I keep lieing to her about how I feel,if I say I'm depressed she throws it back in my face and either says 'get over it' or she says I'm not depressed because she believes that if I really was Id be in bed crying my eyes out.However I hate lieing to her,I feel so fake and feel forced to smile and feel good.Id like to explaine it to her in a way she will understand without her flicking me off.I have a feeling she is sceared that Ill go like my mother,who had a mental breakdown when I was young and she won't know what to do with me.At the moment we aren't getting along very well,she's very snappy with me so I feel I can't talk to her.I am also very stressed out.What hurts me more is the fact that she told me to be open with her and ask for help if I ever needed it.I feel like I can no longer do that.Should I tell her or just leave it?
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