Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Sometimes we build huge walls or shelters around us to protect us from everything including ourselves.
For me, I found I hurt, was angry, and mostly hated. I hated anything to do with happy, niceness, friends, and myself. I was suspicious of everything. I was paranoid what others motives were how were they going to hurt me. I wondered how the badness in me going to hurt those I did want to protect.
I found I just wanted the pain & hurt to go away and it was easier to find ways to pretend it didnt exist.
Looking back, I can see signs of that shelter I built around me slowly crumbling, cracking, and breaking down.
I dont regret that it did. I dont think I would have ever got well with the way I was. It needed to be destroyed to move on & forward.
Looking back I know the struggles are necessary now. The darkness that has been in my life helps make the good times all that much better.
Just imagining a life without struggles and just easy ways well it sounds downright boring and depressing.
For me, I found I hurt, was angry, and mostly hated. I hated anything to do with happy, niceness, friends, and myself. I was suspicious of everything. I was paranoid what others motives were how were they going to hurt me. I wondered how the badness in me going to hurt those I did want to protect.
I found I just wanted the pain & hurt to go away and it was easier to find ways to pretend it didnt exist.
Looking back, I can see signs of that shelter I built around me slowly crumbling, cracking, and breaking down.
I dont regret that it did. I dont think I would have ever got well with the way I was. It needed to be destroyed to move on & forward.
Looking back I know the struggles are necessary now. The darkness that has been in my life helps make the good times all that much better.
Just imagining a life without struggles and just easy ways well it sounds downright boring and depressing.
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I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I was always a caring, "feeling" person who lived in a world where any kind of emotion was automatically labeled uncool and stupid teenager like I was, I closed up.
I have been trying to destroy them walls for almost 10 years. I have actually made wonderful progress when I compare me now to my former self, but I feel there are still walls that have to be tore down.