Sorry for taking up your time if your reading this, i shouldn't be the one writing onw of these. I made a decision to be the one listening and giving up lifting advice. But today i cant. Im tryng but i just cant stop crying. Started off with what a mock exam which i think i failed in, then i lost my lucky necklace which i havent taken off in years, then large row with Dad and stepmum, then boyfriend taken into hospital after being concussed again in rugby. And the day isnt even over yet. I dont know why i keep crying. Evrything has just been building up and now its all tumbling down. I was doing oh so well. Have not yet SI'ed and i dont want to...but i do. I feel so low, i want to drift off to sleep and not have to wake up. To feel peace and tranquility. Why is this world so damn unfair? I try and look at the positive things, im a good person, i put everyone else before me. I help people, i listen and help lift their spirits. But i still get the bummer part of life. God still doesnt think me worthy of happiness. Why? What do i need to do to be happy? Does he need to take away the people i love? Torture me abit? Make me hate myself? And then hurt those closest to me first? Im fed up of it all, im tired of waiting for my happiness to be taken the moment that i finally found it.
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