I have none left in me ever since I got hurt at work in 2006 and was put on SSDI along with other health problems I have lost my will to live I have tried to get it back to no avail. I feel like a total failure in life as a whole. All my life I have had struggled with my depression only to have every thing I touch screw up .I feel as if it is just not worth it to fight . A failure as a husband, father, son and a brother . I have no strength left to fight . The holidays seem to kick the ever loving shit out of me ... I am sitting looking at this whole bottle of insulin wanting to give myself the final injection and drift off to sleep forever. WHY WHY WHY can't I feel better . why do I have to stay here. .
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