I'm having a really hard time finding anything positive about myself or my life lately. Can't stand my new boss and I feel left out when it comes to my co-workers even though, in the past, I was tight with them. Stressed out as a single mom. Struggling financially. Haven't had a social life for about 20 years now. Lonely. Realizing that I'm never going to be able to be more than I am right now. Will never be able to earn a liveable wage without a college degree. It's too late in the game for that now. Plus, I'm too stupid for it. No, I'm not just being negative when I say that. I'm being realistic. Couldn't afford to take on any more debt anyway even if I would be smart enough. Finding myself fuming inside about people all the time now. Especially my boss (she's an incompetent ass who is letting her new promotion go to her head), coworkers and the injustice of the pay scale where I work. Tired of busting my ass and getting shit in return. Tired of always putting on the happy face for my job. Sick of living where I do but can't financially can't afford to pick up and move. Don't want to uproot the kids anyway. I'm a failure. I'm getting closer to retirement age. I'll be there before I know it, still poor, still hating myself, never having amounted to anything.
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