Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I am constantly trying to shut out my inept need to relate and feel. I sometimes think that brutality in itself is a way to love and relate. From personal experience I am determined to outrun the demons that haunt my every desire to heal. Security is a blanket that covers me by blocking out all life and enclosing my heart with its long arms of complacency. Pain is the realization that life is dead. Freedom is a desire to fly with the eagle. It is a desire to spread my wings and levitate above all those that seek to harm. It is an inevitable truth that can break even the hardest heart. Freedom is slowly chipping away the wall I have constructed. Now if I can only grasp at its truth and show myself how strong i can be and how high I can fly. People are as fragile as the sound of a newborn baby. No matter how big we get or how old we feel it is that fragility that enables us desire everything the heart cannot reach.
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You are repeating what has been shown to you as a form of love. Brutality is not a way to love someone. It is not a way to relate to people either. The chain of abuse has to stop with you. That is when you are not the victim and you are in control. Feeling is great. It really is. so many great emotions out there that feel good. What you experienced as a child was none of those things. It is time for a change to happen. It will improve your adulthood hon. It really will.
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I admire your writing. It's very vivid. But I disagree with you on every level. People are friggin tough. Life isn't dead. Not by a long shot. The fact that you are still standing and can write what you feel eloquently is proof of it. You're one tough cookie, whether you want to admit it or not.
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