Couldnt pick one word for my post title so I picked them all. Dont know how I feel right now. Everything is such a mess. I don't know who I trust anymore. I can't trust anyone. I dont want to live in a world like this. I dont want to die but I cant live in this world. It's not like I'm going anywhere, I never do it right. And part of me doesnt want to. I dont want this to seem like a sympathy seeking suicide blah blah because its not. I just feel frightened and alone. I feel like I have no one to turn to that I can truly trust. People (not on here) either act all two faced and pretend to like me and have a nice little bitch about what an attention seeking freak I am behind my back or they make out they like me and walk all over me. This isnt aimed at anyone on here. I'm just sick of people in the real world getting cosy and pretending to like me and just using me. Acting all nicey-nicey to my face and just taking the piss. I'm just a naive doormat. With a big sign on my head saying "walk all over me, i dont care!" I have no one to turn to. I am alone. It makes me sick to think so many people hate me and say all that shit. I just want to disappear so they cant hurt me anymore.
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