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I'm sure your all being drivin nuts by me by now but I can't help but post. You guys have helped to keep my sanity, what little I have of it. I'm scared to death of today. I've promised to call my counselor and come clean with him about being suicidal and being more depressed. He already knows about the cutting. I'm scared to death what he'll say. If he'll send me into the hospital or just tell me to keep in touch with him over the weekend,

I mean its not like I really want to kill myself, I don't think. I don't know. I know I hate life I would rather not be here so would that classify aas want to kill mmyself???
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PS = I do have several ways in mind on how to do it.
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Why be scared of something that you don't know? what is the very worst that can happen? It can't be as bad as dying sweetie. xx
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ooooh, big huggles and snuggles..sending good thought s your way
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no i dont think so. im sure everybody on here has hated their life and not wanted to be here at some point but i dont think it constitutes actually wanting to kill yourself. Because although things seem really rough just now, if you work at it there's light at the end of the tunnel you just have to find it. and in my eyes, thats worth sticking around for. without the hard times, we wouldnt appreciate the good times nearly as much.
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its not as scary as you think i had to go up to the hospital this week and see a proffesional and they were lovely did not keep me in just sat wiht me and helped me understand i can beat this it takes time, and maybe its good if you counsller says to keep in touch with him over the weekend there you no you have somebody to help you, you can get through the weekend i always find it teh hardest but i pull myself through and you can aswell good luck.xx
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there is a good possibility that you will feel better just from telling your counselor... kind of like a release, letting out those words hiding inside.
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Hon, if you need help, don't be scared. He's there to help you and he can't do that if you're not honest with him.
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there's a difference between actually being SUICIDAL and having what they call suicidal IDEATION.

i'd say u fall into the second catagory, which is quite common.

being honest with your shrink is the only way they can help. say what u have in this post..that u don't REALLY wanna die, just have thoughts about it. that basically, u just don't wanna FEEL like u do.

good luck...and be honest. i doubt they'll send the men in the white coats to cart ya off. lol :)
BIG HUG.
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