I know that we all have good days and bad days. It seems like I am always on the sad end of the stick. I try to find something worthwhile to do with my life It seem as though when I was going through chemo this last time I struggled and fought harder than I ever have.I hurt more, I mean hurt. I was alone except for my husband and son. I just didnt have that closeness that I had with my daughter. My best friends are all iving far away. I miss them more than they know. I would never let them know just how lonely I am. I met someone on DS and began to try and help her. She was almost like a daughter. I found out she lied and lied and she broke my heart. I let my guard down and tried to trust annd look at what happened. I seem to keep thinking about her because I know she needs someone through the lies or whatever. I dont or cant stand being lied to over and over or being used. God forgive her and me. I have forgiven but I am still angry. I want to move past this. I had a friend that I met when I first joined but she left DS and I miss her alot. I pray for stronger days, happier times and lots of love to be showered my way. I am so sad at just being alone. Sometimes you can be surrounded by people and still be alone....Pray for me....Trying to Stay Strong Sandra
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