A glum mood hit me last night. I was doing really well for like a couple of weeks there and then boom! Suddenly my mood dipped again last night, no cause. Well, no major cause. I\'ve also got BPD and bipolar, so that can explain the change in mood randomly. I just don\'t like this dip in my mood right now. I\'d just seen my therapist on Friday and was doing fine, but he noticed some changes in me physiologically, and now I\'m wondering if that wasn\'t a sign of the change in my mood to come. I\'m not sure. All I know is I feel a drawing to my old self injurious ways. I don\'t do it, I\'ve come too far in recovery to let myself slip into it again. I just feel kinda crappy and it makes me sad and makes me feel alone. Just had to find a safe place to let it out.
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