I am crazy, how do I rectify this? I have children that I am ruining. I am in a relationship that I am sabotaging for I dont have any idea why as she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. At times, I regret ever bringing her into my world. She keeps my head way above water, but there are times that I sink a bit and I bring her with me. I have no confidence and I lost the ability to feel like a man. When seeing another man in public, I find myself very substandard in that department as I have lost something, some sort of man quality that I can not put a finger on. I used to be very confident and successful, now I am so nearsighted that I can not find an outlet to regain my confidence or feel secure about myself again. I feel that I am inferior to all and that my current love should have someone else a real man. People had once found me charismatic, but I feel that I am so far from being charismatic that I am letting people down. Because of this insecurity and lack of confidence, I find that I am starting to delve into a frame of mind that I no longer want to inhabit and that everything that is great in my life will shortly be gone. Why do I want to be so unhappy? Should I let the best thing that has ever happened to me go as I dont want to make her miserable and to avoid what I feel may be the inevitable? I want to live
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