*BUMP* I refuse to let this die until I get at least one response.

we cannot make you happy. all we can do is give you advice.

you are so young honey. I wish it was as easy as changnig your outlook on life. I live in a small town now and that really makes me frown some days. Im sorry you didnt get answers to your post.

I understand that you can only give me advice. The only problem is I have done everything that people are suggesting and it hasn't worked on multiple occasions, so I keep asking because I still am in hope that I can get an answer one day that I might be able to try.

I moved away and for a while things were better,then everything was back to the way it was.Is there no help at all when you don't have insurance? x

This is a more reasonable post than the "Does anyone have any KCN"

In the end it still yields nothing but annoying you guys and me still being depressed. I keep posting the same thing over and over and over again. I've been saying the same basic thing since July on here. I know some of you have to be tired of hearing it, I know I'm tired of feeling it, which makes the circle complete...that's why I repost it over and over again. I try to make it a little different each time...but overall its just the same damn thing. I just want help...but due to my family, laws, and money, I am out in the cold with no hope for any kind of medical treatment until I'm 18 and that is not fair to me. That is a whole 6 full months away...I just don't have the heart in me to deal with this crap for another half a year.

And about the KCN, if you still want to bring that up, I'm still willing to spend my savings on some. Just 2-3 grams. I'll pay you every dime I've got for it, because I won't need it anymore. You'll be getting a net of about 5500 bucks. Its up to you.

BTW, nevermind about that because I forgot...I can't get access to nearly 6000 bucks I could use to get some help even though its supposed to be mine.

What are you actively doing right now to manage depression kimahri?

Have you thought about having yourself emancipated? If you did then you could get the medical help that you need and access to your money......just dont spend it on drugs. They are not worth it.

As of yesterday, I had to quit smoking weed due to my mother, but before that, weed was my antidepressant. Every day, at least 3-4 times a day. It helped keep me calm and things didn't bother me nearly as much. Now I have to clean up and have nothing, so I'm not doing anything anymore...can't do anything else. I can't go to the medicine cabinet and pull out my medications that I know I need and take them....because I can't even get them!

Emancipation sounded like a good idea at first, I have put time and research into it. I found a few flaws with it, as usual.
1. By the time everything is finalized and the judge makes a decision, I will already be 18, therefore I wasted the time and money on a lawyer and going to court. It takes about 6 months for them to do a home inspection and whatnot, they just don't let you get emancipated. You have to have good reason to be emancipated in Tx, again with their gay ass laws.
2. I have no money or job, and I can't afford the court costs.

I have to be 18 regardless of emancipation or anything to get the money out of the savings. My grandparents put some kind of lock on it or something. Something that keeps it just out of reach until I'm 18.

So why can't you get a job right now?

even on meds i still get the ups and dowm

Because, Texas passed a law that was supposed to keep kids from dropping out of school. They made the age limit on most jobs here 18. They thought that if kids couldn't work at a "real" job (by real I mean not fast food or grocery store sack boy, I mean something you could make a career out of like carpentry and even janitor) they wouldn't want to drop out of high school as much. That worked real good...I dropped out anyways. So now I'm stuck with fast food or sack boy. I will NOT do either one, I can't take it. Also, I can't pass a drug test, so I'm screwed.

meds wont cure everything remember that. They are big in the mental health field now with doing psychotherapy and medication therapy. YOu cant start by doing your therapy here. Talking about how you are feeling and such.