I can't stop crying this morning and I hate it... everything I see or read just makes me depressed, either because it's depressing in itself or, if it's not, because I feel like it will become depressing soon enough. Sounds crazy, I know. I feel like everything sucks. I know deep down that that's not true, but right now I feel so overwhelmed and unhappy. I'm alone out here. I love and want snow and we probably won't get any, this fall having been so disgustingly warm. I wish things were like they used to be; things were simpler and I had a lot more options. Right now I feel like I'm trapped here, in a dead-end job in a state that I can barely afford. I wish I could live way out on my own with some land. I wish I could do compounding pharmacy. I wish I could find someone with whom I could spend the rest of (or at least most of) my life. I wish I could have pets. I want all these things and right now I have to put them all on hold. Realistically, I realize that's how it has to be right now. But I hate it.
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To make my spaghetti and meatballs I use ground beef about a pound and a half. I package of onion soup mix. some Italian bread crumbs, 1 egg, ground black pepper. Onion powder, Garlic powder. Cajun seasoning, dried basil. A little sugar. 1 jar of chunky garden style spaghetti sauce. I like ragu but my grocery store brand is pretty good to. 1 small box of spaghetti noodles. I like to use the low...