Depression Support Group
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rough fucking night last night... all in my journal... god... isn't there ANY man out there who actually gives a shit?! i'm sick and tired of just being a fuck. i know i let myself be that way, but i'm not good with being alone and i keep hoping that ONE of these guys will actually wanna stick around. and in the process i'm becoming a whore. real nice. am i fucking retarded here?? god... crying all night, all this morning, started up again at work when one of the nurses looked at me and said "you look like shit... you okay?"
this is why i HATE having feelings for people. this is why i HATE relationships. i don't trust men as it is, so why would i sleep with them to begin with? i know i shouldn't. i've heard it all before, but i just do it anyway cause i'm fucking stupid. and still i HATE the feeling of going to bed alone. i just don't understand myself sometimes.
this is why i HATE having feelings for people. this is why i HATE relationships. i don't trust men as it is, so why would i sleep with them to begin with? i know i shouldn't. i've heard it all before, but i just do it anyway cause i'm fucking stupid. and still i HATE the feeling of going to bed alone. i just don't understand myself sometimes.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I had a husband who thought all physical touch was foreplay... he was a good lover, but sometimes all I really wanted was a hug.
You are NOT becoming a whore. You feel what's missing.
Ummmm... how about a couple cheer-me-ups, quotes of a woman who was a whore (these made me laugh)
"I don't know why my boyfriend is so upset... my baby's father came over and all we did was have sex and open presents."
"Can I have an advance on my paycheck? I'll give you a blow job." (she borrowed my phone to call her boss, it all I could do to keep from LOL)
"This is so unfair! I was in the freezer having sex with the Chef and the manager came in and fired me for no reason at all."
don't beat yourself up, you don't deserve that. If you find you did it "wrong" today, just don't repeat it tomorrow. That's how we learn..... Cuts down on regrets. There are nice guys out there. The other thing, don't jump in the sex too fast....(I'm a sensual dog, but it has usually turned out "not good." Besides, sex is not all it is cracked up to be. I think we all want intimacy, respect, trust, and unconditional love. When you have those, wow!! They are worth waiting for. If ya wanna chat, I'm here for you.
Wish i had some profound words of comfort and wisdom, but I don't.
In place of those all I can offer you is a warm hug.
Hang in there.